Monday, April 21, 2014

I Can't Believe I'm Doing This...

My journey has been a rocky one. And I know that many of you relate. There are minutes, hours, days and weeks that are good, and I see God’s hand working in mighty ways. And then there are times when I feel the pangs of defeat and the enemy’s laughter haunts me.

So, tomorrow will mark a defining moment on this road…registering for a marathon. There’s a surreal feeling when I type those words. It’s an out of body experience…or more like an out-of-my-mind-what-am-I-thinking-dear-Lord-please-help-me kinda thing. But, I am drawing a line in the sand, and I’m sticking with it.

This is where we sense the Lord leading us, and we are scared stiff. JT and I are committing to running a marathon in January of 2015. That means training starts in June. So, we have to be running 3-4 miles at a time at least 3 days a week by then. And we are already doing that. We will have to continue and be consistent (which is not necessarily the case right now).

Between friends and people who have shared this same struggle…I am so afraid. A great fear of failure almost paralyzes me at times. I want to run the marathon. I don’t want to run the marathon. I think I can do it. I don’t think I can do it. I want to succeed. I want to quit. Oh, the dichotomy of feelings that run through my veins. Can you relate?

Please pray for me and I embark on this part of the process. I NEED your help. First and foremost, I need people who will pray that God would continue to teach me from His Word about taking care of His temple. Second, I need people who will consistently ask me how I’m eating and how much I’m exercising. I covet your help…and I am thankful for you and your support as I run this race!

1 comment:

Hannah Ashley said...


i'll be praying for you!